Moderate hurt excites me. Sometimes I am surprised by this. Even though I know that I am part of the "group" of people who do not always orgasm in a conventional way, I still surprise myself sometimes. I like to be commanded, I like to be dominated, I like to be taken control with attitude and courage. I like it when he is sure that he has control over me and my body. I like it even more to give that certainty. Sometimes I am "afraid" of this side. Sometimes I wonder if it would be better if I went back to the vanilla life, but I don't think I can do it. I can't because pleasure at its most intense is something that has always been a part of me. Always, in my most intimate dreams. Sometimes all that can happen is an imbalance in the level of pain with what I consider pleasurable, but I have to talk about this with the person who dominates me. We always have to try to improve our communication every day. Submission is broad. BDSM is broad. We can explore many things, and although I am a